90 Day Jane Not Killing Herself, Not As Hot As You Hoped

90 Day Jane, the blogger who promised to commit suicide in 90 days, won't. She made the site as an art project, figuring only some friends would see it because people usually aren't drawn to dramatic stories on the Internet. While Jane hasn't revealed her true identity, Radar Magazine thinks they found her at a blog named Void, running the photo and caption shown here. Anyway, after Jane outed herself on the blog, she shut the whole thing down. We saved the confessional post below, in which Jane thanks her readers for being "real and heartfelt" and gives props to all of you who asked her to flash some tit.


90DayJane is a personal art piece about me. It was meant for me and

(what I ignorantly thought would be) a small number of people who

might find it on BlogSpot. It is the result of me tapping into the

darkest part of myself and seeing where it led.

What I have written and filmed, at its core, is from a place of truth.

I am the girl in the videos. I have great disappointment with my

generation and its obvious obsession with celebrity culture rather

than their fellow man, thus the former Chuck Palahniuk reference.

I wanted this blog to be about personal discovery and truth. But the

correspondences I have received have taught me more about those

qualities than I could ever express. 90DayJane has become its own

entity and has influenced me. In fact, it has changed my perspective

as a human being.

I feel a massive sense of responsibility to my art, but more

importantly the readers of this blog. My closeness to this project

must have made art seem like reality to many people. That is not a

reaction that I expected nor can I morally justify. This is why my

project, 90DayJane, will be taken down in the next few hours.

90DayJane was meant to mirror the tragic figure, Christine Chubbuck.

Newscaster Christine Chubbuck committed suicide in 1974 by shooting

herself in the head live on air. She was very vocal about her

depression to those around her and gave every indication of her exact

intentions leading up to the event. Sadly, no one reacted or helped

Christine and those left behind could only ask "why".

Her story both inspired and terrified me because I can truly empathize

with her rage and even her isolation. I wondered how Christine's life

and subsequent suicide would play out in our time. Would the internet

be yet another place of isolation to her or an escape? If she remained

vocal about her intentions would anyone bother asking "why" or even

noticing before the fact? Would the reaction (if any) of the public

change her intentions?

I thought this mirror might reflect the isolation everyday people feel

and the lack of true human connection on the internet.

It is my feeling that the internet is the best and worst example of

human interaction. This was painfully proven to me by reading every

comment and every email. I believe I owed that to everyone. I know we

all saw the dark side of the reactions in the blog comments. There was

so much hate, immaturity and apathy. But, I truly wish everyone could

see the beauty and honesty in the emails; many people feel like Jane

(me). People have been more real and heartfelt than I thought was

possible. I owe them a debt of gratitude for showing me the difference

between people's reactions and their true feelings. I understand.

I do want everyone to know that I accepted no money for 90DayJane

despite multiple offers from television, film, books, etc... I will

not release my identity and I ask not to be contacted for any type of

promotion. I want only for the people who wrote to me to know that I

hear them and feel the same way. Your emails touched me so much.

Please, share your thoughts with someone in your life or express them

in a positive way.

To everyone, please reach out to those around you. It's much harder to

ask for help than to offer it.



In the video above I created a PostSecret revealing this project for

what it is. I am in no way affiliated with them, but their site does

great work for suicide outreach. At any rate, PostSecret gives me both

strength and perspective whenever I read it. I hope it does the same

for you.

thx- 90DayJane