World-renowned British comedian Stephen Fry spoke out for the first time this week about a recent suicide attempt that nearly resulted in his untimely demise.
In response to a 12-year-old's question about "what it's like being Stephen Fry," the man best known for being the Oliver Hardy to Hugh Laurie's Stan Laurel opened up about trying to end his life while shooting on location last year.
"It was a close-run thing," Fry said. "I took a huge number of pills and a huge amount of vodka. The mixture of them made my body convulse so much that I broke four ribs – but I was still unconscious."
Luckily for Fry and his adoring fans, the film's producer entered his hotel room just in time to rush him to a hospital and save his life.
Though he made a full recovery, Fry, who suffers from bipolar disorder, said he still struggles with thoughts of suicide.
"You may say, 'How can anybody who’s got it all be so stupid as to want to end it all?'" Fry told the audience. "That’s the point, there is no 'why?' That’s not the right question. There is no reason. If there was reason for it, you could reason someone out of it."
"[T]he whole point of my role, as I see it, is not to be shy about the morbidity and the genuine likelihood of death among people with certain mood disorders if they don’t look after it," he said.
Though he has exposed his most recent close call to light, Fry makes it clear that a darkness still resides in him.
"But there are other occasions when I can't stop myself," he said, "or at least I feel I can't."
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