<![CDATA[Gawker: Suicide]]> http://cache.gawker.com/assets/base/img/thumbs140x140/gawker.com.png <![CDATA[Gawker: Suicide]]> http://gawker.com/tag/suicide http://gawker.com/tag/suicide <![CDATA[ David Foster Wallace Dead of Suicide at 46 ]]> Police have confirmed to Gawker that David Foster Wallace, novelist and essayist, was found dead of an apparent suicide in his home in Claremont, California, where he was a professor at Pomona College.

It's been reported that his wife found him after he hanged himself. Foster Wallace, longtime darling of grad students and civilian PoMo lit fans, was often very funny in print (see his famous essay skewering the cruise ship experience, "A Supposedly Fun Thing I'll Never Do Again"), but as his 2005 speech at Kenyon College implied, he was not unfamiliar with the heft of existence:

[L]earning how to think really means learning how to exercise some control over how and what you think. It means being conscious and aware enough to choose what you pay attention to and to choose how you construct meaning from experience. Because if you cannot exercise this kind of choice in adult life, you will be totally hosed. Think of the old cliché about quote the mind being an excellent servant but a terrible master.

This, like many clichés, so lame and unexciting on the surface, actually expresses a great and terrible truth. It is not the least bit coincidental that adults who commit suicide with firearms almost always shoot themselves in: the head. They shoot the terrible master. And the truth is that most of these suicides are actually dead long before they pull the trigger.

Very Sad.

[Via Reluctant Habits]

Update: The LAT confirms as well.

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Sat, 13 Sep 2008 20:08:13 EDT Jasper Reardon http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5049526&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Did Lizzie Grubman Save Young Buck From Suicide? ]]> According to an unconfirmed story out of Nashville on a hip hop news site's "rumors" section, rapper Young Buck—a former member of G-Unit and buddy of 50 Cent—tried to commit suicide by swallowing pills. The police came and took him to the hospital, and he's okay. And who saved his life, according to this unconfirmed report? Blond Hamptons-crashing PR queen Lizzie fucking Grubman. If true [UPDATE: We hear that it's not, although we're waiting for official confirmation], this is the weirdest story of the day, or decade. The vital details:

A female companion of the rapper told officers that Brown last week filled a prescription for 40 pain pills, but had only taken five of the pills up to yesterday. Brown told police that he had taken the balance of the pills last night. The woman, who has been identified as Lizzie Grubman, Brown's publicist, also told responding officers (RO/S) that she observed Brown(identified in the report as "comp," or complainant) put two pills in his mouth, which she tried to retrieve by placing her fingers in his mouth.

My. We'll let you know when we get to the bottom of this unconfirmed rumor of Lizzie's lifesaving mouth-prying heroics.

[HHBoard]

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Thu, 10 Jul 2008 16:56:55 EDT Hamilton Nolan http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5024030&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Model Dies in Apparent Suicide ]]> Photo06A 20 year-old model jumped to her death in Manhattan in an apparent suicide yesterday. "Ruslana Korshunova, 20, whose face has graced the cover of French Elle and Russian Vogue, apparently jumped from her ninth-floor apartment in her Water Street building in the Financial District just before 2:30 p.m. 'I heard what sounded like a gunshot or a bomb or an explosion,' said a stunned Con Ed worker talking to a cop nearby [...] Cops said there were no signs of a struggle in the one-bedroom apartment, where she lived for only two months. And the balcony from which she plunged had construction netting around it that appeared to have been deliberately ripped."

"Korshunova, a green-eyed beauty, known as 'The Russian Rapunzel' for her long, flowing chestnut locks, worked with the elite modeling agency IMG, which boasts top models Heidi Klum and Kate Moss. 'Our hearts are with her family,' said IMG's representative, Zach Eichman.

"The 5-foot-8 head-turner—just days from her 21st birthday—has been featured in ads for Marc Jacobs, DKNY, Vera Wang and Christian Dior. She was discovered in 2003 when a booker from London-based Models 1, Debbie Jones, noticed her in a feature about the model's hometown of Almaty, Kazakhstan.

"'She looked like something out of a fairytale!' Jones told British Vogue. Soon after, the 17-year-old beauty was hailed as the next big thing, gracing runways at Fashion Week wearing Jill Stuart, Betsey Johnson and other designers.

"Her distraught ex-boyfriend, Artem Perchenok, 24, said that he dropped the model at her apartment at 5 a.m. after they watched the movie 'Ghost.'

"'She was a good person'" he told The Post, still reeling from the shock.

"Friends broke the tragic news to Korshunova's mom, Valentina and brother Ruslan, who still live in Kazakhstan. '[The mom] didn't believe it was real,' one close friend told the Post via phone from Moscow, Russia.

"Korshunova's best friend, Kira Titeneva broke down when she arrived at her pal's apartment late last night. 'We were talking on the phone last night,' she said. 'She loved life so much. She was an angel.' Titeneva, who grew up in her pal's hometown, said Korshunova 'wasn't wild. She was never on drugs or anything.'

"Another friend said that Korshunova seemed to be 'on top of the world.'

"'There were no signs,' said the pal who did not want to be named. 'That's what's driving me crazy. I don't see one reason why she would do that.'" [NYP]

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Sun, 29 Jun 2008 09:29:57 EDT ian spiegelman http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5020568&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ You Have Hopscotch To Live For ]]> subwayplatform.jpegHow many times have you gazed out on the subway tracks during your daily commute, wishing only for the sweet release that hurling yourself upon them would provide? Plenty of times; you're reading this site, so we know your job sucks. Some people do throw themselves in front of trains, which represents not only a wasted life, but also a hugely inconvenient municipal clean-up job. So Washington, DC has ordered up some stuff to keep your mind occupied while you're on the platform—games like Hopscotch and "I Spy." The slogan on the games reads "Life is fun. Keep on living. Use caution around the tracks." Perhaps hopscotch was not the wisest choice, then? And let's be honest—the slogan of this campaign should really be, "Anything to Momentarily Distract You From Suicidal Thoughts." After the jump (ha), one of the "I Spy" games. This would only cure a very minimal level of depression:

ispy.jpeg


[via Adrants; photo via Peter Kreder]

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Tue, 13 May 2008 12:24:40 EDT Hamilton Nolan http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=389969&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ 'GMA' on MySpace Suicide: "Someone Could be Hanging On Your Every Word" ]]> Megan Meier was a Missouri teenager who hanged herself after bullying from a neighbor girl, abetted by the neighbor's mother. Because most of the bullying took place online, on MySpace, the story has a special appeal to the newsmedia—it's not just bullying, it's cyber-bullying. Good Morning America weighed in on the tragedy in a segment this morning. An excerpt appears above. It illustrates not only the importance of being careful "what you say online," but also the dangers of speaking extemporaneously on live television. Was "hanging on your every word" really the best choice of language there? CLIP »

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Tue, 01 Apr 2008 11:55:33 EDT Pareene http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=374619&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Blogs Innocent Of Shoving Ad Exec To Death, Friend Says ]]> Paultilley-ThumbThe Times looked into the death of DDB Chicago Creative Director Paul Tilley and found that he probably jumped from an upper floor of the Chicago Fairmont hotel to his death, and does not appear to have been brutally pushed through a window by the Scary Internet Blogs as had been feared. Though Tillet faced potentially lethal "biting" "harsh criticism" on AgencySpy.com, the Times found an anonymous friend of Tilley's who said blogs had nothing to do with his suicide:

... a colleague and friend of Mr. Tilley’s, who spoke on condition of anonymity, said, “There’s no way you or I will know why he did this, but it’s certainly not because of blogs.”

“I know it bothered him,” the colleague said, referring to the public criticism. “However, he was very intelligent, with lots of talents and skills, and this was not his whole life. Pointing to blogging and the media just trivializes a man whose life was not trivial.”

The Times also tracked down the 29-year-old woman who writes AgencySpy. She sent an email to the Times saying she does not feel responsible for Tilley's death:

“Perhaps the definition has changed as information has become more easily accessible,” she said. ”This new medium has different rules and that may include the scope of who and who isn’t in the public eye. Some people subscribe to these new notions and some don’t.

“I’m saddened by Paul Tilley’s death, but I do not feel that my blog postings contributed to the events that occurred.”

Nina DiSesa of ad agency McCann Erickson Worldwide, who has a new book arguing that men listen "like a dog does," said blogs should be more respectful. Her original quote, "BAD blogger, BAD!" was apparently rejected, and anyway most male readers were too busy sniffing butts and howling at the moon to finish the article.

Her nemesis George Parker at the advertising blog AdScam, who recently called "the vast majority of the work" coming out of DiSesa's firm "shit," said traffic to his site has tripled in the wake of the suicide.

[Times]

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Sun, 02 Mar 2008 22:30:00 EST Ryan Tate http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5003471&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Former AP Exec In Bay Ridge Murder Hotel Case ]]> bestwestern.jpegYesterday we noted the death of Paul Mento, whose body was found gagged with duct tape in a bathtub at Bay Ridge's Best Western Gregory Hotel, site of another recent murder. We also mocked the fact that police were "investigating the death as suspicious." No shit, right? Well, it turns out that Mento's death was in fact a suicide. And that's not all—he was a former executive with the AP.

Mento was the AP's budget director for 15 years, according to Newsday. Police say that he died of suffocation from the duct tape, but that he was alone in the room. He was not found in the bathtub, as initially reported, but on the bathroom floor. They also say he may have had a gambling problem, but no definitive connection has been established yet. He left the AP in 2004.

[Fishbowl NY]

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Wed, 27 Feb 2008 17:27:32 EST Hamilton Nolan http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=361579&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Ad Agency Boss Calls Bloggers Hateful Bitter Losers Over Tilley Suicide ]]> ninadisesa.jpegThe controversy over what role (if any) ad bloggers played in ad exec Paul Tilley's suicide is rising up the ranks pretty fast. Earlier today Nina Disesa, the chairman of the New York flagship office of huge ad agency McCann Erickson, left a comment on the Agency Spy blog that calls bloggers hateful failures, and their commenters "losers." This prompted AdScam's George Parker, an actual ad industry guy who takes a backseat to no one in cussing out said industry, to scoff at her, and add that "I happen to think the vast majority of the work that comes out of McCann is shit." The most incredible aspects of this controversy are, 1. The fact that nobody knows why Tilley committed suicide has not prevented a major agency executive from speculating on the cause, and 2. A major agency executive could be so tone-deaf when it comes to the blogosphere. The whole thing is getting nastier by the minute, without any real new information. Disesa's full angry comment is copied below.

Nina DiSesa Says: February 25, 2008 at 2:06 pm

Paul Tilley worked for me for three years at JWT Chicago, from 1991 through 1994, then I left for New York. Even then we could see that this young man was destined for big things in this business. He was not only a wonderful writer and creative thinker, he was fun to be around and had a generosity of spirit that made us all happy to be in the same agency. And he was just a kid at that time.

These hateful advertising blogs seem to be written by people who are bitter about the business. Perhaps they tried to make it in this tough industry and failed and now all they can do is make derogatory comments about the people who are smart enough and brave enough to work at the top of this challenging business. It's so easy to criticize creative people because what we do is so arbitrary and subject to almost anyone's opinion, but only a few have the guts and the brains to be creative directors. It's a lonely job and the people who keep insulting creative directors on this blog should spend their time trying to be better at their own jobs. I notice that no one uses their real name. Mine is Nina DiSesa, I am still in the business and working every day as the chairman of McCann Erickson's New York office. And I don't care if everyone takes a potshot at me. People who write and contribute to these ugly blogs are losers. Their comments don't bother me in the least.

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Mon, 25 Feb 2008 15:52:42 EST Hamilton Nolan http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=360562&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Did <em>Agency Spy</em> Blog Drive Ad Exec To Suicide? ]]> PaulTilley.jpegPaul Tilley, executive creative director of the major ad agency DDB in Chicago, jumped to his death from a hotel window on Friday. He played a key role in many familiar ad campaigns, including "Dude, you're getting a Dell" and the "I'm Lovin' It" campaign for McDonald's. But Tilley was often criticized on industry blogs, and in the wake of his suicide, some people are calling those harsh criticisms a factor in his death. Others are arguing just as hard against that interpretation. Below, a selection of the negative comments on Agency Spy, a blog that had criticized Tilley's management skills recently (and offered "heartfelt condolences" on his death):

Seamus Says: February 24, 2008 at 7:08 am Agreed that it's sad and I am sure the condolences are meant. But you bitched about the guy 5 days ago and now that post is mysteriously missing from your site.


S.O. Says:
February 24, 2008 at 11:58 am
Heartfelt? True? Just stop it now. It's too late.
Paul was a talented, compassionate, kind, and thoughtful man. But those with far less character, in name and anonymously, chose not to write those things.


bill Says:
February 24, 2008 at 3:43 pm
death by blog
It looks like this stupid blog can kill more than a career.


bill Says:
February 24, 2008 at 3:50 pm
F-ing parasites!
Agency Spy, George Parker/Adscam, and Lewis Lazare/Sun Times should all be sued.


Dan Says:
February 24, 2008 at 4:07 pm
Trust me... as someone who's known Paul for over 20 years... he heard and felt all those comments and whispers.
Sadly, we'll never know what drove him in those final hours. All support to his two girls.


gb Says:
February 25, 2008 at 3:01 am
What was written in the blogs about Paul was outrageous and cruel. If you don't think that such deeply hurtful comments were not impacting him and his family or fanning the flames at work, you are seriously naive. The criticism certainly undermined him. Paul sure wasn't perfect, but who is?
I can only hope that this horrible event will lead people to think twice before they let loose with caustic comments that are globally disseminated. Are there no standards of decency in the blogosphere? There should be.


hesucks Says:
February 25, 2008 at 1:54 pm
i think it's time for your to rename this site 'BLOODONMYHANDS.COM'


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Mon, 25 Feb 2008 11:51:13 EST Hamilton Nolan http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=360413&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ 90 Day Jane Not Killing Herself, Not As Hot As You Hoped ]]> 90-day-jane-on-radar.jpg90 Day Jane, the blogger who promised to commit suicide in 90 days, won't. She made the site as an art project, figuring only some friends would see it because people usually aren't drawn to dramatic stories on the Internet. While Jane hasn't revealed her true identity, Radar Magazine thinks they found her at a blog named Void, running the photo and caption shown here. Anyway, after Jane outed herself on the blog, she shut the whole thing down. We saved the confessional post below, in which Jane thanks her readers for being "real and heartfelt" and gives props to all of you who asked her to flash some tit.


90DayJane is a personal art piece about me. It was meant for me and
(what I ignorantly thought would be) a small number of people who
might find it on BlogSpot. It is the result of me tapping into the
darkest part of myself and seeing where it led.
What I have written and filmed, at its core, is from a place of truth.
I am the girl in the videos. I have great disappointment with my
generation and its obvious obsession with celebrity culture rather
than their fellow man, thus the former Chuck Palahniuk reference.
I wanted this blog to be about personal discovery and truth. But the
correspondences I have received have taught me more about those
qualities than I could ever express. 90DayJane has become its own
entity and has influenced me. In fact, it has changed my perspective
as a human being.
I feel a massive sense of responsibility to my art, but more
importantly the readers of this blog. My closeness to this project
must have made art seem like reality to many people. That is not a
reaction that I expected nor can I morally justify. This is why my
project, 90DayJane, will be taken down in the next few hours.
90DayJane was meant to mirror the tragic figure, Christine Chubbuck.
Newscaster Christine Chubbuck committed suicide in 1974 by shooting
herself in the head live on air. She was very vocal about her
depression to those around her and gave every indication of her exact
intentions leading up to the event. Sadly, no one reacted or helped
Christine and those left behind could only ask "why".
Her story both inspired and terrified me because I can truly empathize
with her rage and even her isolation. I wondered how Christine's life
and subsequent suicide would play out in our time. Would the internet
be yet another place of isolation to her or an escape? If she remained
vocal about her intentions would anyone bother asking "why" or even
noticing before the fact? Would the reaction (if any) of the public
change her intentions?
I thought this mirror might reflect the isolation everyday people feel
and the lack of true human connection on the internet.
It is my feeling that the internet is the best and worst example of
human interaction. This was painfully proven to me by reading every
comment and every email. I believe I owed that to everyone. I know we
all saw the dark side of the reactions in the blog comments. There was
so much hate, immaturity and apathy. But, I truly wish everyone could
see the beauty and honesty in the emails; many people feel like Jane
(me). People have been more real and heartfelt than I thought was
possible. I owe them a debt of gratitude for showing me the difference
between people's reactions and their true feelings. I understand.
I do want everyone to know that I accepted no money for 90DayJane
despite multiple offers from television, film, books, etc... I will
not release my identity and I ask not to be contacted for any type of
promotion. I want only for the people who wrote to me to know that I
hear them and feel the same way. Your emails touched me so much.
Please, share your thoughts with someone in your life or express them
in a positive way.

To everyone, please reach out to those around you. It's much harder to
ask for help than to offer it.


In the video above I created a PostSecret revealing this project for
what it is. I am in no way affiliated with them, but their site does
great work for suicide outreach. At any rate, PostSecret gives me both
strength and perspective whenever I read it. I hope it does the same
for you.

thx- 90DayJane


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Wed, 13 Feb 2008 15:08:48 EST Nick Douglas http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=356131&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ In 90 Days, This Girl Will Kill Herself ]]> "Please don't attempt to 'help' me," says the blogger known as 90 Day Jane. "If you want to truly help, please send me ideas on how to do the deed." Is that even legal? In three months (83 days now), Jane is going to commit suicide, and meantime she'll write a daily essay with an admittedly neat look at one aspect of suicide. On Day 90 she said she wouldn't change her way of life. On Day 89 she wondered why movie suicides shave their heads. Day 88 she figured she won't pack up her belongings for her family; Day 87 was reactions-to-the-thousands-of-readers day, and on Day 86 she shopped for a suicide dress. There was video.

The version on her blog is disabled, but here's the updated video of 90 Day Jane in the changing room:

Day 85 is the requisite "Maybe I'll quit this blog" post, but yesterday she's back to witticisms. She tells about a Valentine's Day admirer and says, "I just hope he's not looking for anything long-term."

The quality of Jane's writing means two things: First, she's interesting enough to override online suicide fatigue (one Digg user wrote, "How popular is this online suicide shit getting? Just the other day some gay kid slit his wrists live on [live video site] Stickam").

Second, maybe she's fake, though this would be a poor choice of art project given the chance that it gets shut down. Even if she's real, the blog will impede her; Google could track down her IP address, or someone could identify her. Meanwhile she'll get a lot of attention during the countdown. Her story should hit Fark in a few minutes.

Like I mentioned, live online suicide is an old tradition. Camgirl Stacy Pershall made Wired News in 2001 with her second on-air attempt. A boy who drugged himself while on a chat room left his last words, "I told u I was hardcore." People watching London's first webcam suicide weren't charged with any crime for goading him.

But Jane hasn't promised any live suicide. The show is her 90-day thought process. So it's okay to watch, right?

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Tue, 12 Feb 2008 00:06:52 EST Nick Douglas http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=355306&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Sleeping Pills Found Near Ledger's Body ]]> Ledger-2 "This is being looked at as a possible overdose, but that is not confirmed yet," NYPD spokesperson Paul Browne said today, addressing the suspected suicide of actor Heath Ledger at a downtown apartment. According to reports, the medication found around his naked body "appear to be over the counter" sleeping pills. WNBC's sources say two bottles of sleeping pills were found near the body, one containing prescription medication and that fire officials had said the 911 caller reported a man not breathing, with a "cold" body. TMZ reports that an autopsy is scheduled for tomorrow. UPDATE: One of Ledger's close friends tells US magazine his death was shocking, but not surprising. "We saw it coming. Heath has gone though a rough road of trying to get sober." ]]> Tue, 22 Jan 2008 17:35:35 EST Maggie http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5002464&view=rss&microfeed=true <![CDATA[ Suicide Suspected In Heath Ledger's Death ]]> Heath Ledger's death today at a Manhattan apartment owned, says the Times, by actress Mary-Kate Olsen. Prescription pills were found around the actor's "naked and unconscious" body. ]]> Tue, 22 Jan 2008 17:29:32 EST Maggie http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5002463&view=rss&microfeed=true <![CDATA[ Study On Journalist Burnout Explains Why You Hate Your Job So %*&$#@ Much ]]> Burnoutjobs You make crap for cash. Your achievements are barely noticed. Your company's idea of encouragement is not firing you. The last time you spent more than twenty good minutes with your kids or significant other was two weeks ago, give or take a month. Sound familiar? A former journalist who's now a professor at Indiana's Ball State University has turned your career malaise and the occasional desire you have to slap your editor really hard into a full-blown research study on journalist burnout. He draws his conclusions based on responses from newspaper staff nationwide. Also on something called a motivation-hygiene theory, which makes us giggle a little. What does the Ivory Tower think about how you're doing? Well, in a study whose main indicators are exhaustion and cynicism, probably not much. Who's the most miserable among your colleagues? How long will you last? If you promise not to kill yourself, then by all means, investigate the post-jump details.

  • Newsroom stressors? "Meeting newspaper deadlines, pressure to produce good work, low pay, media competition, long hours, implementing new technology, and conflict between work and family." Seriously? Seriously.
  • If you're under 35, you're more stressed out than the old-timer down the hall. By "old-timer," we mean anyone over 35.
  • "It’s incredibly stressful trying to write well all the time," said one of the 20-something respondents quoted in the study. Girl, do what we do and just settle for being horribly flawed. Way less hassle.
  • 62% of you are pretty damn sure your decision to be a journalist might have been a great big ginormous mistake.
  • You're unmotivated, disillusioned and disappointed. Also "tired of being stuck indoors." I do like to think sunlight misses me as much as I miss sunlight.
  • Photogs are happiest, copy editors unhappiest. Shutter-happy open-air freaks.
  • To reiterate: please don't kill yourself, we cannot have that. It would be hard to blame you. But please don't! Suicide is not cool.

"While journalists might continue to forge forward despite workload, deadlines and salary issues, they will not stand by as the foundation of journalism crumbles beneath them. At that point, they will quit," the study concludes. Hey! Anyone want to start a rock band or a truffle farm with me? Clips not required.

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Wed, 16 Jan 2008 18:26:42 EST Maggie http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5002323&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Britney Spears' Suicide Note Found, Contains "Lines from poems about death" ]]> Human tabloid (humanoid, tablun?) Britney Spears wrote a suicide note, reports In Touch. It contained "lines from poems about death." She wrote it days before she was taken to the hospital. She left it on a bathroom counter. It was found by Sam Lutfi. It was "very sad." But more importantly what poetry does Britney Spears use to die with? If we had to guess, we'd say there was some G.K. Chesterton, some Shelley and even a little Yeats. After the jump, we take you inside the frazzled addled sad saddled muddled muddy mind of Ms. Spears. First she probably Googled "death" and "poetry". Then she clicked on the first link or maybe she was feeling lucky. Either way she'd end up at Poetry about Death. She probably became excited at the first poem, A Ballade of Suicide by the early 20th century British poet GK Chesterton and clicked through to his poem. "Ooo," she thought, scribbling down the first line: "The gallows in my garden, people say/Is new and neat and adequately tall;/I tie the noose on in a knowing way/As one that knots his necktie for a ball." At this point, she probably grew bored and found the ABAB scheme a bit repetitive if not oppressive. Scrolling down the page, her eye might have been caught by Yeats' Upon a Dying Lady. "Hey," she thinks. "I'm one of those!" With her day-glo pink gel pen she quickly cribs:
She is playing like a child And penance is the play, Fantastical and wild Because the end of day Shows her that some one soon Will come from the house, and say Though play is but half done "Come in and leave the play.
But by this time, Adnan is knocking at the door. Jayden and Sean Preston are knocking on the door and Symbolists never agreed with her anyway. So she wipes a tear from her face, signs off XoXoXo Brit, presses the paper to her lips and leaves it next to the Q-tips. ]]>
Wed, 16 Jan 2008 07:08:58 EST Joshua Stein http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=5002310&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ The late Theresa Duncan is still blogging ]]> theresa_about.jpgWriter/artist Theresa Duncan, subject of a January Vanity Fair cover story (among plenty of other coverage), is updating her blog from beyond the grave. Cries for help: now available months after they'd be useful. Duncan—whose intentional overdose on pills last July led to the suicide of her partner Jeremy Blake a week later—had become, according to acquaintances and friends interviewed by Vanity Fair, increasingly erratic, paranoid, haggard, hard-drinking, and depressed in her last year or two. She was convinced that Scientologists were harassing her and Blake, trying to sabotage her stalling career (movie and TV projects that never got off the ground, including one that was supposed to star erstwhile friend of the couple and famed Scientologist musician Beck) and his ascending one (a scheduled retrospective of Blake's work at Washington DC's Corcoran Gallery ended up going on posthumously). So: what does a dead woman blog about? Dick Cavett, Sherlock Holmes, and T.S. Eliot.

The first posthumous post reprinted a ghost story Dick Cavett shared on his New York Times blog. It's called Basil Rathbone's Ghosts, and its story of communication from the great beyond ("Moments after Rathbone's friend is killed in a car accident along with his beloved hunting dogs, the actor receives a phone call from a psychic who says she's received a ghostly message. 'Traveling very fast. No time to say good-bye. There are no dogs here.'") is a clear, if not quite obvious metaphor for Duncan's own updates from that great Starbucks in the sky.

The second, and presumably final post, reprints the fifth stanza of T.S. Eliot's "East Coker." About the "20 wasted years" and the impossibility of communication in this nutty world and the whole thing is depressingly MySpacey for a spooky art star suicide note (it also gives a bit of credence to the "lordy, lordy, look who cannot handle turning 40" theory of her motivation). The final lines of the poem (not quoted by Duncan): "Of the petrel and the porpoise. In my end is my beginning."

When we go, we'd like our last post to just be a crying-face emoticon.

Dead Woman Blogging [10ZenMonkeys]
The Wit of the Staircase

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Wed, 02 Jan 2008 17:11:11 EST Pareene http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=339764&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ N.Y.U. has more students studying abroad ... ]]> Picture%201.jpgN.Y.U. has more students studying abroad than any other U.S. college or university, says the Institute of International Education in a new study. Well, sure. Seems like a far more sensible option than the alternative.

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Tue, 13 Nov 2007 17:55:26 EST Maggie http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=322338&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Hey NYU Kids: Life Is Good! Stop Throwing In The Towel! ]]> nyupills.jpg Yet another student at N.Y.U. has killed himself, this time in a Water Street dorm. The school has abided by the family's request not to send out a notification email to the entire university in order to protect their privacy, but apparently, such sensitivity does not apply to speaking to the school's newspaper, which university spokesperson John Beckman, who may or may not be paid some sort of suicide-and-pot-princess overtime, did quite readily.

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Mon, 12 Nov 2007 15:10:07 EST Maggie http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=321713&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Tourists Keep Jumping Off Our Buildings ]]> suicidegraphNew York is depressing again! After years of relative safety and fun (and occasional terror), tourists across the nation are now flocking to New York City to entwine themselves forever with oblivion. According to the Daily News, more than 10% of New York's suicides are committed by out-of-towners— 407 of them from 1990-2004.

Our buildings are tall and we have a large number of bridges, so it's natural that "jumping from a height is more common in New York than in the rest of the United States," as a report from the New York Academy of Medicine says.

In the rest of the country, people tend to do kill themselves in the privacy of their own homes, but as usual, New York attracts the attention-seeking and the egotistical, and then crushes their narcissistic dreams by forcing them to confront the oppressive anonymity of their own insignificance. Or something. That helpful and macabre graphic from the News explains it much better.

Some 'tourists' choose city landmarks for suicide [NYDN]

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Thu, 01 Nov 2007 12:30:12 EDT Pareene http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=317743&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Suicide Is Painless, Profitable ]]> suicideDo you ever have those moments where you're suddenly jarred from your quotidian routine and you realize that everything you do—even those rare moments of enjoyment spent in the company of friends or the people you love, those too-infrequent times when you're out of an evening and it seems like the dawn will never come, the increasingly isolated occasions when something you do at your job gives you that satisfying feeling of accomplishment—is essentially insignificant and without worth, that life is suffering and in the end everyone who ever knew you will die and any trace of you or your memory will vanish from the face of the earth? Those 3 A.M. crying-in-the-bathroom with a razor blade held close against your wrist attacks of desperation? Well, you might be able to make some money off of it!

The story site Common Ties has been publishing personal stories on a wide range of topics since October 2006 and will begin posting audio stories in August 2007. Among its themes, Common Ties is seeking stories about suicide. Stories are due by July 10 and selections will be made on July 12.

While suicide tends to be a taboo subject, chances are you know someone who has attempted it, even if you do not know of the attempt. In the US, for example, nearly 3 percent of the population has attempted suicide. In 2004, 32,000 people in the US actually killed themselves, 80 percent of whom were male. Worldwide, one million people commit suicide every year.

We are looking for any stories about suicide, whether they focus on someone pondering it, attempting it, or actually committing it. Stories can be written using your byline or a pen name.

Common Ties will shell out up to $200 for your tale of existential despair, with the possibility of another $150 if they have you record the story. Give it a shot! (The story we mean.) We'd do it ourselves, but something about the idea just makes us want to bring a sharp knife into a warm bath.

Seeking Suicide Stories [Craigslist]

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Fri, 29 Jun 2007 09:53:10 EDT abalk http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=273581&view=rss&microfeed=true
<![CDATA[ Crossing the Line: Will We or Won't We? ]]> SP32-20061130-152731.jpgAn earlier post where we wondered whether or not we should provide a suicidal reader precise information as to how many Ambien one needs to take to finally draw down the curtain on this life provoked some interesting responses. Mostly, you don't want us to have any fun. A sampling of the responses we received can be found after the jump, along with our final decision as to dispensing the advice in question. See you on the other side.


  • "My .02 is that you don't supply the lethal dose info. Although I'm sure there are quite a few of your readers who you feel would be doing the world a favor by taking the right amount of pills, things posted on your site are searchable by pretty much anyone. Some hipster whose iPod is stuck on Bright Eyes? Fine...but what about a 14 y/o kid without the access to a counselor or the ability to get help? You not posting it might buy them some extra time if they find themselves in a state of desperation. Just a thought. Keep up the good work."
  • "There is NO need for Gawker to dabble in assisted suicide. Do what you do best - help us procrastinate, not die."
  • "Suicide should be creative, like Lidle in a Plane with a Building. Your enquirer may think he's clever, but his family will not, and they will blame you. Blame as in LAWSUIT."
  • "No, NO, NOOOOOOO. If they're going to do it - they'll do it on their own. Give no assistance, or if you do, steer them to the Hemlock Society. I truly do know someone who got help from the Hemlock Society (although they were suffering from terminal cancer)."
  • "Wow. You guys really DO want user feedback! Holy crap — if someone really did send in an email like that — well, actually — you're handling it quite well. If it's a joke — you've told it to us — and if it's some weird cry for help — you've publicized it... As you were..."
  • "I love Gawker - love it! And 50% of me thinks you're joking about this. There really is no justifiable reason for giving an answer to that incredibly sad question. And seriously: I've done some stupid things in my life - some might have even called me a douchebag. But YOU Gawkers, have REALLY out douched me this time! Douch !"

    On the other hand, there was this:

  • "I'd have to go with answering this one:

    a] Death by pills is a lot cleaner than some other more over-dramatic queen styles. Let's send this one off without the clumpy blood mess all over the hotel bathroom floor or something. We don't want to make some illegal immigrant's day too stressful with having to scrub grout, do we? OK, maybe we do.

    b] What the hell. This one wants a little attention. Why not make somebody's day. -especially if it's their last. What better way to go out than with a send off from the Interweb. It's so "now" or whatever.

    c] I haven't seen a quality chart in some time. I like informative color bars."

    So, all things being equal, we're going to go with the pro-suicide advice. Here you go, sad little e-mailer: You take one pill. You lie down. You sleep. You wake up and look around and remind yourself that, as dark as things might seem, the world is full of wonder and surprise and you may be one day away from undergoing an experience that will change your life and make you see things in an incredibly different way. Depression is a terrible illness, but it can be treated. Death is forever. Choose life.

    Nah, we're just kidding. Take the whole bottle.

    Earlier: Crossing the Line: Gawker Suicide Service

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    Thu, 30 Nov 2006 17:00:24 EST abalk2 http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=218406&view=rss&microfeed=true
    <![CDATA[ Crossing the Line: Gawker Suicide Service ]]> pro-ambien.gifWe're not afraid to be servicey here at Gawker: We're all about bringing our readers important information that they might not be able to obtain in their otherwise busy lives. Certain requests for illumination, however, put us in an odd place, ethics-wise. Take the following query:
    I just read your item about Al Goldstein saying he has enough Ambien to kill himself ...

    Having tried this myself several times (with vodka, with other drugs) and failed (what I took just put me into the ER for a stomach flush and some activated carbon, and the suggestion to seek psychiatric help ... duh), I think people like Goldstein and me need to know:

    Just how much Ambien does it take to kill someone, based on age and weight? I'm sure it would do the trick, but I've researched it on the Web and have failed to find anything.

    I'm out of Ambien, by the way ... my cache was taken away from me by a person who cares but who apparently has no idea about why anyone would want to do this. I'm sure Goldstein has no idea, either.

    So, what's the lethal dose???

    Now, sure, we could call a couple of doctors, do a little research, but when even our shallow conscience feels a tinge of conflict we think it's best that we seek your advice: Is this a question we should answer? Of course the information would be helpful to some (including an editor or two) but would providing it be the ultimate transgression? Also, if we do, would you prefer to see it in chart or list form? Counsel us here.

    Earlier: Al Goldstein Off the Lithium, Cunnilingus

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    Thu, 30 Nov 2006 14:00:01 EST abalk2 http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=218342&view=rss&microfeed=true
    <![CDATA[ Cory Lidle? Suicide? Question? Appropriate? ]]> cory%20lidle%20suicide.jpgIf there's one thing we know about athletes, it's that they're always up for taking their own lives. Terrell Owens taught us that. And while authorities aren't saying Cory Lidle committed suicide, they're not saying he didn't commit suicide either. Therefore he did. That's what we call journalism. A tipster reports some journalism perpetrated by CNN's Nancy Grace:
    I heard this on WFAN at about 1 a.m. A guy called up the show and said that Joe Beningo (a WFAN host) was on Nancy Grace and she was trying to get him to say that Corey Lidle's plane crash was no accident and that it was suicide.
    Nothing about that in the transcript from Grace's CNN show, so it must have been some later call-ins. The New York Observer's Philip Weiss is all over the question too, asking sternly "How fit was he to get in behind the controls?". Once we've consulted our Ouija boards, we'll get back to you. And for those of you who keep mispronouncing Lidle's last name, just remember: rhymes with "suicidal."

    The Suicide Question Re Corey Lidle [NYO]

    Earlier: Cory Lidle Plane Crash: Morning Roundup, Plane Crash: 'Post' Just Can't Resist

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    Thu, 12 Oct 2006 12:20:59 EDT Chris Mohney http://gawker.com/index.php?op=postcommentfeed&postId=207129&view=rss&microfeed=true